tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251456402186546868.post7388876786416067851..comments2022-11-11T01:23:11.321-08:00Comments on A Master's Kitty: And Now Our Bodies Are The Guilty Ones...ZoeyWickshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17803044444706342105noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7251456402186546868.post-87398367968485132312011-07-20T22:34:41.278-07:002011-07-20T22:34:41.278-07:00You know reading your blog some days I feel like I...You know reading your blog some days I feel like I am listening to words that mess around in my head just in another persons voice.<br />And in some ways I feel like your ina situation a little bit like mine. Like it or not...your needy.<br />Just from what I have read in order to keep yourself from thinking horrible dark thoughts you need someone their with you. And I understand that, I can bring myself to tears in a few moments even if my day had been wonderful.<br /><br />It sounds like you love him to me. At the same time it almost sounds like your afraid of being in love.<br />When I realized how much I needed the man I called Master I was crying. Then for weeks I tried to tell myself it was a lie. It wasnt true.<br />Of all the women in the world I COULD NOT be in love. So I told him, that night I cried becasue he didn't say it back.<br />The next night I bawled because he did. Ever since then I have had my doubts. Especially of "I can't be with him forever..." Then the idea of loosing him is even more devestating then the idea of being with him.<br /><br />But he is the same, when he gets stressed its video games. Lots and lots of them, when I get stressed its cuddling and more attention then its fair of me to expect one person to give. But I needed it!<br /><br />So then I don't get it and its thoughts of "he doesnt love me," or "do I love him?"<br />Of course the answer is always yes.<br /><br />I think you love Chris, but I don't know you now do I? I have seen your text and thats all. <br />So this whole point of it is, I think you should decide. Is it your experiences telling you this is all impossible and not worth or time...or is it true that you don't want to be with him?<br /><br />Right now you are two people though, if you want him you might have to fight now, which in my opinion is braver then just walking away.<br /><br />Anyways, I am no therapist, I suck at advice really. This is in some ways what I have always worried would happen with the man I love. Seeing it...I am not going to say it scared me. <br />Its just shown me how much work I would do to stay with him even if forever seemed a long ways away.<br /><br />Good luck, I wish you the best!Naughty Puphttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14630331183989928958noreply@blogger.com